response to ortega:
i suppose you are right, i do know a couple people who do play with the hopes to just be in number one scoring spot as sole motivation and then love to constantly remind others as the match goes on and/or ends. i dislike boasting, but i am doing it now in this thread in reponse to another's. and yes, most often than not, when someone good gets one of the great weps or lightning, the result is to be expected. not always the case as i have seen too, since sometimes the ability to kill first or be in a more busy part of the map gives more advantage then. this type of situation is what makes things fun for me, especially when i can tend to have the mp5 for most maps for the whole map.
response to amy:
it is a team game, and thats what i value most about this server. noone can do it alone, despite what they may say. with the vortexes, wands, and deemer instakills and being so numerous, noone would be able to win a map on their own here unless they find a perfect hiding spot and just shoot while being unable to be shot back. few in the game couldn't get anything if it wasn't for those who share their weps and pus, especially when coming in in later waves. i am not here to be number 1 or to force myself to be high scorer, but i do have the desire to win the map for others and myself since it actually is not easy at all and people like to feel all their efforts resulted in the good outcome since everyone contributes in the mayhem. and i won't lie in that this invasion system joey and the others have put together is just insanely intense and fun, and i get no greater feeling that seeing so many monsters drop before me. it also helps to vent some frustrations my life has too, and most maps i just put my everything into.
there are only two people here i play to beat, out of team gameplay context. the only reason i have this motivation for is because they constantly say something to the effect that they wish to surpass me and prove themselves or something else to try show their superiority, so i will make sure they have a run at it with the maps we play on. i want those who do know what its like to play with me to recall the times we play...do i ever ever say how good i am doing, talking trash, showing ego and pride, or anything of the sort? (summoning a wand is where i'll actually say anything of happiness of acquisition..its been the rarest thing to actually summon, and i want most to know that beam they will see is not an enemy, but me). i stay quiet about such things and most often i don't care of the score, i don't look at the score screen much during the map since i am either configuring or reconfiguring a wep, handing out pus, or delivering a gun to somebody who needs it. and do i ever express dissatisfaction if i am not high scorer, or not have a good wep like another? have i ever left a map when the dreaded weapon loss occurs when respawning after being wanded or rocked? i continue playing as i can and do my part. only pu i will ever speak about requesting is just to have one heal if i have a weapon that can hurt me badly. i try to be just another player like most of you, and to not foster any negativity towards me by anything i say or do. if i seem to have "stolen" a pu that really is upsetting, just say so and i will give it back, even that first inf i obsess about i will return in such a case. this doesn't apply to kurt though, he's illustrated how selfish and perjurous he is in game and i actually have the urge at times to just follow him around now and purposefully take any around him on purpose after all he's done
only when i show off here is it because of rarity like a very high score on a rather difficult map, or in response to someone else who wishes to have a score competition with me during game. like that score after border's with the laser rifle. i wouldn't have posted that all even if it weren't for t-money leaving the game so in case he contest what i say here, any of those listed on the score screen can verify what happened. and maybe to have him stay next time i am beating him...i like when he plays with me, believe it or not, it gives me an extra push and i know with him around too, chances of winning increase a lot. he is a very very good player who does not hack or cheat as many can accuse. yes, having these little special competitions can make the game experience more fun, but overall, i simply enjoy killing a lot of crap with you all!
i make this long-winded post to support and explain my feelings and motivations here, so you guys can understand that i am not on to beat you all, but simply to do all i can as i can, to help, win, and make it all the more fun! and i will reveal too that since i am around often and have come to know some of you now, i want those i play with regularly to like me ^_^
good practice for whoever's worse.. which is prolly me but im getting better :D.... as whoever it was i was playing the other day can tellu 
i forgot who it was but like 2 matches in a row i won from behind in like the last minute (one i scored w/ like 10 seconds left to tie it, hes was pissed